The Come Back of The Wandering Soul

Hello Dearest,

It has been so long since I’ve last visited you. How are you? Have you been well since?  I have been so busy with nothing, but lots of things happened and I was down and I’ve gotten right back up again. Now, everything is back on track, even though there are obstacles and bumpy roads and still more ahead.

Love,

I missed coming here. I’ve been away too long and I’ve a lot of clusters in my head that need to be cleared.  Somehow or rather, I missed my old life, I missed the friends and the times when I was happy being me. I am myself now, but I feel incomplete. I feel as if something is missing, but I don’t know what it is.

My Dearest,

Sometimes I feel it is hard to be me. Sometimes I feel like taking a persona and not being me. I can lie to anyone but I could never lie to myself.  I am going through my 33^rd year and heading to my 34^th year soon, and guess what? I still have nothing much to show and I could never say I am there yet. I do have a life, I am surviving but barely.

Sayang,

I, sometime feel so alone. Even though, I am surrounded by people day by day. I missed my friends, I missed my old friends but I am ashamed to go and meet and greet them again as I feel I have nothing still. I always feel I am not worthy of a friend. These might be the reason why I always making new friends along the way but losing my old ones.

Dinda,

Don’t you worry about me, Sayang. I know I am a strong person. I’ve been through this before and I survived and I can do it again. I am very much happy with my current job, the job that I have left it more than a year ago and I am back to do it again. I believe this is my niche that I have been searching for. This is where I can be myself and I see myself reaching for my goals. I have not achieved all of my 2011 wish list but I am going to have it all in 2012. Pray with me, Love!!

Dearest,

I miss you and I will always love you no matter what. Please grant me your forgiveness as I am in need of it. I will not promise you I will give you the sun, the moon or will I make the earth stand still for you. But I can promise you this, I will be a much better person and I will shine again even brighter as loving you make me want to be the greatest person you have ever known.

Enough of my nonsense now, Love. I thank you for being such a good listener as always. Thank you again for understanding that I am yet a human and I do have feelings. I shall see you again with good news and sharing my happiness in the future, as my thoughts would only be happy thoughts.

Have a good life My Dearest, Please take a good care of yourself, and always be happy and grateful of what you have. I am grateful that I am still alive and I am grateful with all the huddles in life that Allah given me.  I know, Allah will only test the person who Allah knows could handle it…

I shall see you soon love, meanwhile be assured that I will always be the one who will come running back to you and I will come running with the pots of gold… InsyaAllah.

Assalamualaikum….