Dear Love,
I have had a very stressful and fucked up day today. So many unwanted things have happened at a go. Everything has came up unexpectedly. I always knew they will eventually come but I don't expect it so soon. My bad debts are chasing me, left right, back, front and centre. I am in deep shit. I had to face all and make decisions alone.
Love, That's not the most heartbreaking part. Today I had to leave the life I used to have behind without turning back even a glance. I had to forget that I used to love my dearest so much. I had to say good bye permanently to a place I had called home for the past 3 years. A place I had prepared for our nesting ground, our humble abode. I painted the walls and filled it with love. It was not just a house or a home, it was my castle, my fort, now no more.
Love,
I am sorry if from now on you will see me differently. I may not be the same me you used to know. I may look different, I may talk different and I may even sound different. I am inventing the new me. I have had enough of being the old new that brings nothing and people always sees the old me as weak and a loser. I am sick and tired of the same perspectives they have. I am a great person, I could be even better than anyone could imaging. You would have to wait and see, love. You will fall in love with the new me, as if you are falling for a new person.
Love,
I wouldn't want to bore you. Please forgive me if I haven't see you around as much as I should. I would be very busy with work and pursuing my new love interest as you know so well, I could not live in single hood too long.I already someone in the picture but I still have the fear of the past would come back haunting me. I am afraid I might failed again. But, M is...how could I describe M. Each time I am downed emotionally, just hearing M's voice and listening to M, would makes all the iceberg in me melted, all the fire of anger and frustrations doused off. Ahhh....not to forget M's smiles....the smile that could make Kings surrendering their thrones... M may or may not be mine, but how I wished M is mine forever.
I believe I would have to stop here. I will write to you again soon. Hopefully by then, I could give you an update or two and maybe a happy news. I leave you now with a note of love and friendship. Take care my love, always be happy and cheerful.
The one who will always love you,
Edd Ardee
p/s: I have attached my new picture taken at the new office...I am a lot slimmer now.. :)
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