This morning, I had breakfast with Wai See, lama jugak x jumpe dia. It has always been such pleasure to talk to her. We had a nice chat and even though a short meet up but we managed to catch up...Thanks Wai See for the books.
Hmm...what should I rant about today? Kak Yam is busy cleaning the house but I just too lazy to help up...heheheh she's been paid to do it so kuasa sangat nk tolong....hehhehe House is a mess with the stuffs from my old place, my room still clustered with unpack clothes and documents...arghhh...hehehehh cian kak yam!
At the moment is thinking about M. Still cannot stop thinking....last few days, M seems to shy away. I don't know, whether it is just my feeling or it is reality. M might feel disturb or rimas with me. I need to back off a bit as I don't want to lose without fighting. M's hinting me to keep my options open, in another words, find someone else....hahahaha but M, I am not looking and will not look for the person. I will let the person comes to me. If u are the right person for me, I will let u come to me at ur own will.
My everyday life is improving bit by bit. At work I am doing better, I've managed to close sales and focus more. I've received praises from the bosses but I am still not satisfied not until I could praise myself for the hardwork I've done and the money I always needed are already in my pockets. I've shown some that I've promised the Bosses but I haven't proved to myself, I am not what others would think of me, THE LOSER!
I just need to keep the momentum going and keep running till I reach the top. They say, it is lonely at the top but what the heck! I don't mind as long as I am no longer in the slump....I had enough of mud in my face. I rather have mascara and blushers than dirts....
I still miss my dearest but I told myself, there's no turning back. No matter how much I loved my dearest, I could only love her from far. I hope u are doing ok, dearest.... It was such a pleasure roller-coaster ride this past 4 years....
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